Friday, 7 June 2013

Where next?

I am an incredibly lucky woman.

I am 26 with a good job, a mortgage, a wonderful husband and a beautiful daughter. It doesn't get any better. 

The last few years have been exciting. When I finish my degree.... When I finish training... When we get married... When we've bought a house...  When we have a baby... I've ticked those boxes now. There will be more babies. The next house is not an option right now. D has a new job. I'm fine where I am for now.

I guess I feel a bit lost. I feel like I'm just back to counting down to the next school holiday. I am lacking a focus. A milestone, perhaps. I guess because all our plans aren't definite or out of our control. At some point we'll do the kitchen. We'll get to work on number two later this year. Maybe we'll get away next year... It's all a bit up in the air and open to change and I find it quite unsettling.

I've always been a planner and a waiter. I could have put my life on hold waiting for E, looking at baby stuff, getting ready and drinking tea. Now she's here I love every moment, I am far more spontaneous than ever before and planning goes out of the window as someone always has other ideas.

Does needing milestones mean you're wishing life away? How will I feel when my family is complete and we are counting down to the next school holiday? Does this feeling go away?

Probably not, I suspect, but I think having children changes things somewhat. Wedding planning for that one big day, the first day of that chapter. Watching that bump grow and imagining what the little in person will look like, the day that they arrive is a start of another chapter. But these days, every day is like a mini chapter, or at least a new paragraph. We might be waiting for teeth, or another word, but every day is exciting and new and rewarding. 

I know that the milestones that are to come will be rewarding and exciting too. A kitchen that I can cook AND entertain in. The next career step. A sibling and best friend for my wonderful daughter. A week in the sunshine. But actually more importantly, it's all about living for now. I won't get these days back waiting for the next thing to happen.

It's time to start enjoying them even more.


  1. What a wonderful post!! You are so right, it's all about enjoying the moments.

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  2. This is so true and lovely! I really enjoyed reading it. I know that feeling. I have to remind myself to live in the here and now and enjoy every moment with the family I have now.

    Thanks for linking up to Raising Imperfection

  3. I felt this way a bit ago. For all of my adult life I had been checking boxes off and right now we are waiting a bit for our second baby so I felt a little lost. I decided I needed to enjoy the moments. :)

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  4. I love all your photos -- how beautiful!! -Amy from Wildflower Ramblings

  5. I’m finally going through Floral Love submissions form last Friday! Thrilled to be here ♥ Delightful post! Really.
    Thanks for sharing.

  6. Hmmm.... I'm sorry I didn't reply to you all, I'm quite sure I had.

    Thanks everyone for stopping by and reading.


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